{"id":865,"date":"2025-07-27T08:52:03","date_gmt":"2025-07-27T08:52:03","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blog.nayayinlari.com\/?p=865"},"modified":"2025-07-27T09:00:33","modified_gmt":"2025-07-27T09:00:33","slug":"bir-dogum-lekesi-kadin","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blog.nayayinlari.com\/?p=865&lang=tr","title":{"rendered":"Bir do\u011fum lekesi; kad\u0131n"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class=\"haber-ust-alani\">\n<h1 class=\"haberin-basligi\">Bir do\u011fum lekesi; kad\u0131n<\/h1>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"icerik-baslangic\">\n<div class=\"icerik-alani\">\n<div data-zoom=\"4\">\n<p>\u0130lke Tv-Herkes onu edit\u00f6r ve ele\u015ftirileriyle biliyorken o elinde \u015fiir kitab\u0131yla \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 geldi. \u0130yi ki de \u015fiir yazm\u0131\u015f dedi tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir\u00e7ok \u015fair. Hatta kitap \u00fczerine k\u0131sa bir tan\u0131t\u0131m ve s\u00f6yle\u015fide de olumsuz bir tek fikir beyan eden olmad\u0131. Okumam sonucundaki kanaatim detay\u0131yla a\u015fa\u011f\u0131da olacak ama \u00f6zetin \u00f6zeti fikrim: \u015eirvan Erciyes\u2019in Post Mortem\u2019ini be\u011fendim.<\/p>\n<p>G\u00fclten Ak\u0131n\u2019n\u0131n \u201c<i>kestim kara sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 n\u2019olacak \u015fimdi<\/i>\u201d dizesine hayat veren bir bak\u0131\u015f a\u00e7\u0131s\u0131yla yola \u00e7\u0131k\u0131lm\u0131\u015f sanki. \u015eair bu dizeyi rehber edinmi\u015f kendisine, can suyu kabul etmi\u015f. Sesi i\u00e7erden yank\u0131lan\u0131yor \u015fairin, evlerin i\u00e7inden, evi kutsalla\u015ft\u0131ran, putla\u015ft\u0131ranlar\u0131n kula\u011f\u0131n\u0131n dibinde sesleniyor.<\/p>\n<p><i>Annemin rahmine s\u00f6zc\u00fckler \u00fcflemi\u015f<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0karadan kara gecede \u015feytan<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0do\u011fmu\u015fum sonra\u00a0<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0sa\u00e7lar\u0131m o gecenin rengi, dilim \u00e7atal<\/i>( sf:9 )<\/p>\n<p>Daha ilk \u015fiirinde bir \u2018cad\u0131l\u0131k\u2019 pe\u015finde, \u015fiirin tamam\u0131nda toplumun kad\u0131na bi\u00e7ti\u011fi rol\u00fc bir do\u011fum lekesi gibi ta\u015f\u0131man\u0131n a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla sesleniyor okura. Ne ziyaretler gezdirilmi\u015f, kafas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinde ne kur\u015funlar d\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f fakat \u2018cad\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131\u2019 ge\u00e7memi\u015f. Okyanusun ortas\u0131nda susuz b\u0131rak\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 halde sivri dilinden, ele\u015ftiren, yeren, geren halinden taviz vermeyen kad\u0131n\u0131n kabu\u011funu k\u0131rma u\u011fra\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcyoruz.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><b>Ayn\u0131 mezarda bir can gibiyiz<\/b><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00f6lmek istemem<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0annemle ayn\u0131 mezara koyarlar beni<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0pahal\u0131d\u0131r burada mezar yeri<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0mezar ta\u015f\u0131na yazarlar<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0anas\u0131yla k\u0131z\u0131<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0burada yat\u0131yor koyun koyuna (<\/i>\u00a0sf: 13 )<\/p>\n<p>Yak\u0131n zamanda \u0130zmir Buca mezarl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bir yak\u0131n\u0131n ( san\u0131yorum babas\u0131n\u0131n ) mezar\u0131na defnetti\u011fimiz yazar arkada\u015f\u0131m Hasan \u00d6zk\u0131l\u0131\u00e7 geldi akl\u0131ma bu \u015fiirde. Zordur yak\u0131n\u0131n\u0131, dostunu, arkada\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kaybetmek, kendi ellerinle g\u00f6mmekse bin derdin binidir. Bu d\u00fcnyada \u00f6l\u00fcm varsa zul\u00fcm vard\u0131r. O zul\u00fcmlerden devam edip konuya d\u00f6nersek, mesele sadece mezar yerinin pahall\u0131 olmas\u0131 de\u011fil elbet, kendine bir yer bulamamak\u2026 Ayn\u0131 kaderi payla\u015fman\u0131n zifiri karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan sesleniyor; do\u011furdun beni, ya\u015fayarak borcumu \u00f6deyece\u011fimi sanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, yan\u0131lm\u0131\u015f\u0131m; geliyorum a\u00e7 koynunu. G\u00fcnah\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6rtmeye geliyorum; g\u00fcnah\u0131n beni do\u011furmakm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n<p><i>avucuna bakt\u0131m<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0yollar g\u00f6rmedim yolculuklar g\u00f6rd\u00fcm<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0mezar g\u00f6rmedim \u00f6l\u00fc g\u00f6rd\u00fcm<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0d\u00fc\u015fman g\u00f6rmedim sava\u015f g\u00f6rd\u00fcm\u00a0<\/i>( sf: 16 )<\/p>\n<p>Mezars\u0131z \u00f6l\u00fcmleri mi yoksa \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fckten sonra bir mezar\u0131 fazla g\u00f6renleri mi imlemekte? Bug\u00fcnlerde bitirilen bir sava\u015f\u0131n ki kullan\u0131lan dil \u00e7ok \u00f6nemli, bar\u0131\u015f derlerse dilleri \u015fi\u015fecek, ter\u00f6rs\u00fcz T\u00fcrkiye s\u00f6ylemi ad\u0131 koyulmam\u0131\u015f sava\u015f\u0131n itiraf\u0131d\u0131r oysa. Bu bar\u0131\u015f iklimine gelene kadar \u00e7ok bedeller \u00f6dendi ki yak\u0131n d\u00f6nemde tanklar\u0131n, z\u0131rhl\u0131 ara\u00e7lar\u0131n arkas\u0131nda s\u00fcr\u00fcklenen insanlar\u0131n cesetlerinin, o\u011flunun, kocas\u0131n\u0131n, k\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n, babas\u0131n\u0131n mezar\u0131n\u0131 arayan Cumartesi Annelerinin \u015fiiridir dile getirilen bence; \u015fiiri hangi yarana s\u00fcrersen merhem oradad\u0131r.<\/p>\n<p><b>Orada b\u0131rak \u00f6l\u00fcy\u00fc<\/b><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00d6ld\u00fcr \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc<\/i>\u00a0\u015fiiri \u00e7ok e\u011flenceli bir \u015fiir olmu\u015f. E\u011flenceli \u015fiir olur mu, neden olmas\u0131n ki? \u00d6l\u00fc de haddini bilsin can\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p><i>\u00f6l\u00fc \u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde \u00f6lmesini bilmeli<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0ya\u015fayanlara lanet etmemelidir<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u2026.<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00f6len \u00f6l\u00fcnce e\u015fyalar\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fcr evlerde<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00f6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne inanmak \u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6lmesi i\u00e7in ilk \u015fartt\u0131r<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0sesini unutmal\u0131 ille de sesini\u00a0<\/i>\u00a0\u00a0( sf: 17 )<\/p>\n<p>Ne kadar ne\u015feli ve e\u011flenceli bir \u015fiir oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnsek de yine di\u011fer \u015fiirlerinde oldu\u011fu gibi bir kasvet var sesinin renginde, karanl\u0131ktan seslenen bir t\u0131n\u0131s\u0131 var.<\/p>\n<p><i>ok\u015fanmam\u0131\u015f kad\u0131n kat\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ayna<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00f6p\u00fclmemi\u015f ten \u00f6l\u00fc s\u00fclf\u00fcr<\/i>\u00a0 ( sf: 19 )<\/p>\n<p>\u015eair ayna s\u00f6zc\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0131k kullan\u0131r kitapta, diliyle, \u00fcslubuyla, derdiyle \u00f6zde\u015fle\u015ftirmi\u015f. Her \u015fairin sevdi\u011fi, vazge\u00e7emedi\u011fi s\u00f6zc\u00fckler olabilir, m\u00fcmk\u00fcn. Bu dizeleri okuyunca, ey sevgi sen nelere kadirsin diyesi geliyor insan\u0131n; ta\u015f\u0131 yumu\u015fat\u0131p ta\u015f kalplilere panzehirsin. Kad\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 var, feryad\u0131, hayk\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131 var. Beklentinin i\u00e7indeki sar\u0131 irin var.<\/p>\n<p>Azat \u015fiiri zann\u0131mca bitmemi\u015f, ask\u0131da ucu a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sarkm\u0131\u015f bekliyor; kocaman a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f, merakl\u0131 g\u00f6zlerini p\u00f6rtletmi\u015f kalubeladan g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcze \u00f6ylece bekliyor.<\/p>\n<p><i>t\u0131rnaklar\u0131m\u0131z i\u00e7imize uzuyor sufli uykularda<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0esmer bir pavyon \u015fark\u0131c\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n duda\u011f\u0131nda<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0kan k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 ruj, akan rimel<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0pe\u00e7etelere silinen kir\u2026<\/i>\u00a0 ( sf: 36 )<\/p>\n<p>\u0130zbe sokaklarda, alkol\u00fcn kokusunun kald\u0131r\u0131mlara sindi\u011fi tekinsiz yerlerde dola\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yor \u015fair bizi. Arka sokaklar\u0131n gizli dilinden g\u00f6geren a\u015fk\u0131, o a\u015fk\u0131 koruma cesaretini mu\u015ftuluyor \u015fiirin tamam\u0131nda.<\/p>\n<p><i>bana \u00f6yle bakma<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0annesini yitirmi\u015f kedi yavrusu<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0kulaklar\u0131n\u0131 dikme dudaklar\u0131ma\u00a0<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u015fiir ne gezer burada (<\/i>\u00a0sf: 46 ) \u00a0 \u015eiire s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131r, \u015fiirden medet umar. \u015eiire \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r bizi. \u015eiirin g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc yads\u0131maz; \u015fiirin t\u0131ls\u0131ml\u0131 oldu\u011funu hissettirir.<\/p>\n<p><b>G\u00fczel bakmak sevapt\u0131r<\/b><\/p>\n<p>\u015eehvetle g\u00f6r\u00fcr d\u00fcnyay\u0131, arzular, arzular\u0131n\u0131 serbest b\u0131rak\u0131r; sonu\u00e7lar\u0131na ald\u0131rmadan. Sonu\u00e7lar\u0131na katlanma sabr\u0131 cesaretinde sakl\u0131. \u015eehvetini kendi yarat\u0131r; g\u00fczel ve \u00e7ekici k\u0131larak; arzuyla bakarak. \u00d6nemi yoktur arzulanan\u0131n uyumsuz, orant\u0131s\u0131z \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fc ve bi\u00e7imi. G\u00f6nl\u00fc oraya kaym\u0131\u015ft\u0131r bir kere. Bazen \u015fefkatle bakan bir anne, bazen kalbi k\u0131r\u0131k bir sevgili,\u00a0 bazen de isyan bayra\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6klere \u00e7\u0131karan bir anar\u015fisttir. Ama hep kad\u0131nd\u0131r konu\u015fan. Konu\u015ftuk\u00e7a kitaba can veren karakterlerden s\u0131yr\u0131l\u0131r, yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na gelir oturur. Oturdu\u011funu fark etti\u011fi an aya\u011fa kalkar, ayaklan\u0131r; oturmaya gelmemi\u015ftir.\u00a0 \u00c7o\u011fu \u015fiirinde meram\u0131n\u0131n vurucu etkisini y\u00fczle \u00e7arparak sonundaki tek solukluk heceye, s\u00f6zc\u00fc\u011fe b\u0131rak\u0131r.<\/p>\n<p>Gerekti\u011finde \u2018Hay\u0131r\u2019 demeyi de bilir. Hay\u0131r kilitli bir kap\u0131d\u0131r \u015fiirlerde seslenen kad\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde. Anahtar\u0131 elinde sallamay\u0131 bilen bir kad\u0131n. Elinin tersini g\u00f6stermekten \u00e7ekinmeyen bir kad\u0131n.<\/p>\n<p><i>sana nas\u0131l yer a\u00e7aca\u011f\u0131m g\u00f6nl\u00fcmde be adam<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0git i\u015fine\u00a0<\/i>\u00a0( sf: 49 )<\/p>\n<p>Yalanla dolu bir cam fanusta, giydi\u011fin de yalan, g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn de, hayal k\u0131r\u0131kl\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131r sona kalan.<\/p>\n<p><i>mirast\u0131r sana bu ya\u011fma bu talan<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0koynunda sevi\u015fti\u011fin onca yalan\u00a0\u00a0<\/i>( sf: 59 )<\/p>\n<p>\u015eairin Post Mortem\u2019de yan\u0131nda ge\u00e7ti\u011fi imgeler, \u00fczerinde durdu\u011fu t\u00fcmceler, elinden d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrmedi\u011fi kavramlar var. Kay\u0131p Kitaplar Yay\u0131nevinden \u00e7\u0131kan \u015fiir kitab\u0131 a\u011flamadan meram\u0131n\u0131 anlatan poetik \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 y\u00fcksek bir kitap.<\/p>\n<p>Haberin Linki: <a href=\"https:\/\/ilketv.com.tr\/bir-dogum-lekesi-kadin\/\">https:\/\/ilketv.com.tr\/bir-dogum-lekesi-kadin\/<\/a><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Bir do\u011fum lekesi; kad\u0131n \u0130lke Tv-Herkes onu edit\u00f6r ve ele\u015ftirileriyle biliyorken o elinde \u015fiir kitab\u0131yla \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131 geldi. \u0130yi ki de \u015fiir yazm\u0131\u015f dedi tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir\u00e7ok \u015fair. Hatta kitap \u00fczerine k\u0131sa bir tan\u0131t\u0131m ve s\u00f6yle\u015fide de olumsuz bir tek fikir beyan eden olmad\u0131. Okumam sonucundaki kanaatim detay\u0131yla a\u015fa\u011f\u0131da olacak ama \u00f6zetin \u00f6zeti fikrim: \u015eirvan Erciyes\u2019in Post<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":866,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[1087,1089,1093,1091,170,1083,166,1085],"class_list":["post-865","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","category-genel","tag-huseyin-bul","tag-ilke-tv","tag-kayip-kitaplar","tag-kayip-kitaplar-yayinlari","tag-kitap","tag-post-mortem","tag-siir","tag-sirvan-erciyes"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.nayayinlari.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/865","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.nayayinlari.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.nayayinlari.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.nayayinlari.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.nayayinlari.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=865"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/blog.nayayinlari.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/865\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":868,"href":"https:\/\/blog.nayayinlari.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/865\/revisions\/868"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.nayayinlari.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/866"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/blog.nayayinlari.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=865"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.nayayinlari.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=865"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/blog.nayayinlari.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=865"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}